The Strangest Day

This is the last thing I have to do today. The list was LONG. I had people to meet, a class to teach, an art show to hang, art to prepare, yoga, yes, yoga, and other little things to do like eat and unpack. And pack.

At the beginning of this day, I could feel my spine tingle as my nerves buzzed with electricity. I looked into the day and felt panic. I could tell from the way my fella reacted to me that I was already stressed. It was fucking 7 am and I was already stressed. He wasn't into it.

After we said good-bye and I got in his truck to make the journey to my town, I made a decision. I decided to fucking stop. I wasn't gong to rush through my day, trying to get things done. I was going to pay careful attention to everything, make sure I to take care with each person I interacted with, and make decisions that would reflect the care I was taking.

After I decided to slow down, everything got better. It was like leaving Kansas for Oz. The sky was more beautiful, children were actually charming, my tea tasted like wonder, and the things I had to get done turned into projects in which I learned and appreciated the nuances in the work I was doing. 

Once again, I learned about mindset. I learned that the world changes if you change the way you view it. This is one lesson I hope to keep learning. 

I would love for the world to continuously change throughout my life. I would love to discover new things that have been under my nose this whole time.

I would love to keep re-discovering a world that I thought I knew. I would love for people to surprise me.

I would love to observe life expand in front of me, and not have to do a god damned thing about it.


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Decided to lighten it up this week. Thank you to all who emailed and messaged me last week with heart felt compassion. I can truly say it helped an immense amount. 
​Thank you so much.