Today is Halloween. I have dressed as cake, metaphorically. Cake is my favorite thing. I am wearing layers and have a lot of "icing" on my face and head.
It reminds me of high school. I used to spend hours in front of the mirror trying to cover up all of the acne, layering on the make-up until my face itched.
Then I would go to my closet, where I would pull out the baggiest and most comfortable clothes I could find.
I was in hiding. I would walk through the halls of my high school avoiding eye contact, hoping to not call attention to myself and pass the day unnoticed. I was in constant fear of being seen. The pain associated with my self-awareness was stifling.
I am different now. I wear clothes that show off my figure, not hide it. I only wear make-up on halloween, and very often, I can be seen trying to call attention to myself rather than avoid it.
I have my own style. It is not what you would think a typical 45 year old woman would wear, but I love it. I am happy to be me. When I look back at how far I have come, I am immensely proud of myself.
I still have work to do. But it is nice to have days like this, where I can look back to my former selves and feel optimistic about my future selves.
I have made a promise to myself this Halloween. I promise to try. Instead of getting to places in life like this with surprise on my brow, I am going to put a concerted effort into my progress.
I am going to set goals and work toward them.
I am going to get to a place and look around and say, "self, I knew you would get here! I just didn't know you would get here so fast!"
How about you? Where have you come from? Where do you think you will be? Did you ever dream that you would be where you are?
Are you up for a Halloween Promise? Make one! Be bold and brave and ambitious.
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