At one point today, there was a man whom I had recently shared certain intimacies with, texting me and telling me that I had abandoned him. He spelled out, in no uncertain terms, how awful of a person I am, how cold I am, and how my karma is going to catch up with me. He sent me roughly fifteen messages letting me know how badly I treated him. Of course, I could not help but think that he in fact was my karma catching up with me, and that I might want to cool it with the whole dating thing for a while. I happened to mention this story to an ex. He responded by telling me that at the time of our break up, he had also felt abandoned. To top that, earlier in the week he had compared dating me to trying to care for a pet tiger.
This is the dark side of dating. Brutal, unyielding, and absolutely positively the best way to kill every motherfucker in the room when you need that kind of power. No room for explanation or humanity. James Cagney at his best in gangster movies.
But dating can also be incredible. Fun, relaxing, and really quite enjoyable. I have been on several dates recently with a certain individual that have been almost effortless. This is James Cagney in his more whimsical movies. Have you seen them?
That guy could dance. I just watched a video from Yankee Doodle Dandy where he and Bob Hope are dancing on a table...kind of dance-off style. Watch it to the right. It is spectacular. He is light as a feather and charming and wonderful.
This dancer guy? This is the dating we all want; witty and light and easy. A joy to behold in most cases. Effortless.
Unfortunately, what you get many times is the James Cagney that has been pushed too far or too hard. The James Cagney who has been destitute just a bit too long. If you need visuals, the metaphor is below.
Because the Yankee Doodle Dandy James Cagney is such a delight. He lifts my spirits and my heart. He lets me know there is something out there worth holding out for. That is the dating life that I want. That is dating and relationships at their finest; light on their feet, lovely, and wonderful.
Yes, there are some times when you absolutely positively have to kill every motherfucker in the room. But those brutal and awful times are worth it when you finally get to dance on the table.